So, what now?

Sooo...  Wedding is over, honeymoon still to come.  What can I do now?

I sat there pondering this for several weeks.  I did some honeymoon wardrobe window shopping which killed about 3 weeks*  Then I went on a house tidy spree.  Then I re-organised my sock drawer.  Cue post wedding blues.  I needed something to get my teeth sunk into and fast.  I needed a long term project which I could spend time on when I fancied.... But what? 


Then along came Sh@g**

Sh@g is a Smart ForFour which has been mistreated on a gross scale.  I think she was driven by a blind hoarding woman with dogs and kids.  When I took her for a test drive I urgently felt the need to have a shower and frontline myself immediately afterwards because it was so filthy and disgusting.

So because I am so fond of making lists, heres a SITREP

Cons
Massive dent on passenger side rear quarter
Massive weird circular crack in bumper
Bumper half hanging off on passenger side
Very large deep scuffs on all 4 corners (from bad parking?)
3" tear in drivers seat pad exposing metal frame
2" tear in drivers seat back 
Ingrained dog hair in all the carpets
Disgusting perma wet dog stench
Bogeys?
Frame in drivers seat back protruding causing discomfort
Crack & large chip from passenger side indicator
Scratches from ?dog claws on back bumper
?Cooking oil spillage on rear seats
Chocolate and boiled sweets amalgamated in rear door pockets
Cigarette lighter/satnav charger not working
Leak in passenger rear window
MUD!
Various tears, scuffs and scrapes in all of interior door cards
Cigarette burns in headlining, seats and carpets
A pirate copy of Clubland or some other b*llocks in the CD player (worth a mention)
Someone has painted (badly)  the alloy wheels black
The most Fugly colour green? yellow?  Gold/green?  colour I have ever seen
80k on the clock

Pros
It works
It has an MOT
its silly cheap because of all of the above
Its cheaper than the bus
Its not a bus
I can have some fun with this....

So Google got some hammering for a few days whilst I tried to find some solutions to the issue of my super ugly poorly looking car, because frankly it was embarrassing.  Driving round in a car with all those dents and scrapes, it made me look like I couldn't drive and I take it very personally if you insult my driving.  Reason being,  the last big thing I did with my Dad before he died in 2005 was learn how to drive and I see driving as the ultimate gift from him.  I love driving, but driving a car I feel embarrassed to be seen in really ruins it for me and is also a bit insulting.  So I needed a solution to the problem and fast.

To fix it would cost at least £1000 which is money I don't have and feel would be wasted.  So what could I do?  

Them BAM!  

I came across an image of a Micra the same year and colour that I used to drive (aka Rita).  But this Micra had a very special look.  It had panels which were rusted, shrunken heads hanging from the mirror, stickerbombed windows, a roofrack sporting various bits of junk, whitewall tyres and some random paint job on the doors.  I laughed so hard I nearly peed myself.  I then clicked on the link where it took me to a website called rat-look.com where I discovered a whole community of rust crazy nutters.  They took cars who were past their best cosmetically and went wild with whatever takes their fancy.  They know how not to take themselves too seriously and can have fun with their cars.  

The concept of Rat Look seems to have various grey areas and if you ask the members for their opinion, you will most likely get different answers.  Some believe it is a highly modded mechanical masterpiece with a generally tatty exterior.  Some believe it is a fully rusted exterior and some just don't have a clue but love it anyway.  Rat Look in my eyes is taking a car (or vehicle) which cosmetically isn't too cracking and you roll with it.  Embrace the dents, cultivate the rust into a paint effect and generally have fun with it.  Don't take it too seriously and make something which will make people laugh or smile.

Challenge accepted.

*Going on holiday when you're plus size can be difficult.  I cant just buy some super cute lil shorts and sexy lil vest tops cos I would look like an absolute twit!  anything above the knee is a no-no!  and flattering, keep cool, functional yet pretty clothing is difficult to come by.  Swimwear is a massive challenge too. Cant wear halternecks because the back rolls down, cant wear bandeaus cos it gathers up and squashes boobs into a kinda ugly sausage,  cant wear bikinis (shudder) ESPECIALLY those super cheap pretty little tie side jobbies.  *sigh*  so ill carry on on my slimming world diet and dream of sundresses :-)

** The nickname my colleagues gave her

The Cake Makers Cake

It took 2 years to design and 10 minutes to be eaten.  Was I pleased with it?  Umm not 100%.  There was nothing wrong with it, but I felt it was a bit of an anti-climax.  I think I would never have been 100% happy regardless though as there were too many people giving their opinions on what it should and should not be some of which I agreed to against my better judgement.   This meant I ended up with a whole tier that was bodged and a feeling of uneasiness about the structural integrity. 

The compliments received were all good but it didn't soothe my disappointment in the finished product.  *sigh*  I think that's what you get for putting too much pressure on yourself huh?  ( Dont think it helped that the toastmaster kept picking fault.... git)

The Bottom tier was fruit and has a ring of flowers mimicking the detail on my wedding dress.  

Then there was a tier of carrot cake which had a quilting effect on it.  This is the tier I dislike due to it being uneven and having poor detail.  I knew I didn't want to do this design but it was a compromise I should never have let happen.  Luckily the camera angle disguises the errors.  I finished this tier off with a length of ivory lace and some 3mm Berisfords Cypress Green Ribbon.  

Then we had a tier of chocolate cake simply finished with 50mm Berisfords Cypress Green Ribbon and an antique brooch I picked up at an antiques fayre.

Then we have 2 tiers of lemon cake.  The 2nd to top was finished with a pretty ruffle effect mimicking the effect of bridal underskirts and the top tier had pleated detail similar to that on the bodices of both mine and the bridesmaids dresses, finished off with a larger flower in the same design as the bottom tier surrounded my crystal picks made by my talented Stepmum.

The Day

So The Day came and went in a blur.  
    The Day which has caused blood sweat and tears has occurred.  
        2 years of careful planning has come to an end.  
            The Day which has been the cause of so much heartache is finally over.  

Was it worth it?

Absolutely. 

Making a List, Checking it Twice!... Oh Bugger

So I am a self confessed list making junkie!

I make lists for allsorts.  I dont feel like I am able to plan anything without lists.  Without a comprehensive list with sub lists and supporting information I feel like Im incompetent and destined to fail!

This wedding planning lark is exactly the same, I had a timetable of events to help me plan what needs doing (due to me doing and making nearly everything myself)  and put it up in the kitchen on "The Great Wall of Plan".  I have to say this has been invaluable!  I then sat down and made a shopping list for all the bits I have so far forgotten and it wasn't pretty!  How did I forget so much stuff?  Everything from heel grips to make-up remover is on there with grapes in between!  *sigh* 

Now comes the task of figuring out when exactly am I going to fit all this into my exhausting week?  I have a plan though!  Its called Pull Yourself Together Dawn and Deal With It!  

So how am I going to fit in a shopping excursion?  Simple!  Make a list of stuff to do!  

Do you see where this is going?

Me too.

I think I have a problem.

Wedding Stress & Stupid People.

So its 30 days to go from today and I am stressed.  Not because of invites, dresses, flowers or any of the other things one needs to be organised and faffed over, but because of stupid/selfish/obnoxious/no common sense/annoying* people.  I understand that my wedding is not everyone's  priority and life shouldn't come to a screaming halt because I am getting married, but basic common courtesy would be most appreciated from my loved ones and professional contacts!

My heightened emotional state really does not help matters when there seems to be a new occurrence of something bad happening on a daily basis and peoples general lack of compassion and understanding making matters worse.  

I now detest the phrase "Bridezilla"  because I have come to realise its unfair.  In some cases it is well deserved due to the fact that some bride to be's are just psychopaths, but most of the ladies I have been speaking to are put under so much pressure and endure unrealistic amounts of stress and anxiety (me included) that they have no choice but to crack at some point.  Does this breakdown deserve them the title of bridezilla?  So if someones car continuously breaks down and leaves them stranded and in tears, causing them to have a little rant on occasion, does this make them a carzilla?  No.

So if my heightened stress caused by people behaving with some of the above mentioned traits is cause for me to be tagged a Bridezilla then so be it.  I shall wear that title as a badge of honour, however those who are guilty of causing stress oughta be ashamed of themselves and hide under the stairs because a scorned "Bridezilla"  is not a person you want to cross.  

Heres where I get all wordy...

I like this quote and thought I would amend to make it fit-for-purpose.

"Hell hath no fury like a woman Bridezilla scorned"

I then went one step further...

Nails may get broken and noses may hurt.  

Feelings may become bruised and ego's burst.  

Smugness will be wiped and jesting slapped.

Haters will hate and stupidity snapped.

If you rile the bride

You scorn the groom

A chief bridesmaid will come down on you

And force you from the room

The bride is fragile and her sanity she will mourn

You are in the wrong and your pride will be torn

She needs understanding, patience and love

To help her create memories she can be proud of

On a lighter note, this lady Cheryl Texiera has made a series of wedding related monologues which cracked me up.  The stuff she comes out with is all too true.  If you are planning a wedding I sincerely recommend you take time out to watch her work.  It will be good for your sanity.  Trust me.

*delete as appropriate

Unsettled

So its 67 days to the wedding from today.  Over the last few weeks I have become a crafting machine, powering my way through the projects like a woman possessed   There was no stopping me and I was taking no prisoners.  Why?  Because I had it in my little brain there was too much to do and not enough time.  I also had the grim realisation that I had a million other non-wedding related things that needed my attention too.  The list of stuff to do for both home and wedding is frankly overwhelming I think I will probably do one of two things.  1- Go nuts and sit in a corner gently rocking or 2- come up with an in depth plan of action involving timelines and lists.  

Neither of which is particularly appealing at present so I have come up with a 3rd option.  Do nothing.  Absolutely nothing.  Nada.  Diddly squat.  Nowt.  Im going to sit on my bum and lead a normal life for the next 2 weeks, purely because I want to.  I may decide to have a bash at making some of the stuff Ive been pinning on Pinterest purely for entertainment purposes.  I might decide to watch a box set.  I may even go wild and start playing Assasins Creed which has been sat gathering dust for a few years.  Either way Im not doing anything weddingy. 

I'm not you know!

No, I'm not....

Yea!  Did you see that?  I didnt do anything weddingy!  ultimate self control!  All I have to do is keep doing nothing until February.

Do I think anyone will even notice?  

No.

*sigh*

At lease my sanity might come back from where its been hiding!

Reminiscing

Reminiscing is something I tend to do quite often, especially recently.  Not that i have a particularly large amount of time on my hands but more because of the bad times that have burdened my life for the last few years.  I have some big events coming up soon such as MrMc's 30th birthday which needs a cake worthy of his big day, my Nanna's 80th birthday, then there's my wedding day coming up so its all systems go at the minute!

All this planning ahead also got me thinking in reverse, mostly about cakes may I add! So i thought I would delve into the archives and post some of my favourite cakes from the past to inspire me for cakes of the future!

so here goes!  My top 5 favourite cakes

#1 The Pizza

Pizza Cake

I loved this cake!  I remember delivering it to my colleague and being met with weird looks walking through Castleford Hospital!  One lady stopped me and asked me why I was wandering round with a box of pizza.  When i explained to her its a cake she went all giddy and asked me to do her grandaughter a birthday cake!  Needless to say my head swelled as my ego inflated to mammoth proportions!

#2 The I-phone

The i-Cake

When I wanted to make an i-phone cake there was pretty much no inspiration for how to execute it other than whats available in hardware images, but now there are thousands of the b*ggers!  I like to think I was a pioneer for the i-Cake!  Yeah dream on!  Still liked it though!

#3 The lipstick

M.A.C. Lipstick Cake

This lipstick was on a mirrored board so it looked like the writing was on the mirror...  I really liked this cake.  Did I mention the lipstick itself was glittery?  A girl can never have too much glitter on her birthday!

#4 The Diver

Diving Themed Cake

So I was asked to make a cake based on a scuba diver... So I made the lil guy and then my imagination started going... Shark infested waters, creatures of the deep blue, fishing for old boots!, brightly coloured fishies, seaweed, coral reefs, the floating remains of your wooden boat!  So I rolled with that.

#5 The Pint

Pint of Lager Cake

So I started out making a pint of lager cake... I found some acetate sheet stuff (them sheet  things you use for overhead projectors) and with a white gel pen drew out the sign found on pint glasses.  I made a cylindrical cake and wrapped it in the pint glass and painted a wood effect on the board.  That's when I went to the party and had a drink.  I was meant to just add squirty cream to it before the big presentation... buuut I had one or two glasses of wine and ended up a bit giddy as you can see...  keep wanting to re-create this so that I can finish it with a 'proper' head but can't seem to find the perfect excuse...

So off I go planning and designing the cakes of the future! Here's hoping I can make up something I can be proud of for years to come!